wow xanga has changed...

Hello, to anyone who still reads xanga entrys.

im not lying when i say im totally aginst the whole xanga thing, becuase im very myspace addicted...

but..

i felt like writting tonight..

so whoever who still reads these things, let me know what you think...

isnt it funny how much life has changed from now ... being a senior ... from being a freshman...

my life is so different, i look at the world in a different way..

its 3:00 in the am and i have to be up by 8 but i dont care...

i was thinking about how i dont care about school.. i just want to work and move out.. and get my degree..

all of the people in my life that i concidered to be my good friends.. or "best" friends.. arnt.. turns out i was just having fun with them at that moment..

those girls i use to be/hang out with.. arnt there for me anymore. i couldent even tell you when the last time they asked me how my lifes going was... they dont care. there enjoying their own life, and since it dosent involve me anymore, they dont care. why would they? there too worried about their own problems to wonder about anyone elses..

its sad.. because it seems like everyone around me is enjoying highschool/their senior year. im not. i dont give a FUCK about school or anyone there.. i just go to pass.. so i wont hear my parents bitch about me not amounting to anything.. i want to get that diploma so i can throw it at them and say .. "there ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?" "AM I GOOD ENOUGH NOW?"

i know schools important.. but i just dont care about it anymore. it use to be fun for me.. a social thing. now its like a punishment...

all the dates with guys ... were silly.... i cant believe how quickly i fell for some of you jerks. thanks for the one night stands, the kisses, the fights, and all that for what? you dont even talk to me anymore.. your nothing to me.. i dont even remember you.. you dont matter.. and i dont think i would ever do it agian.. ever.. not even in a split moment...

stupid now compared to what i have with jonathan...

I dont know how many of you know about him.. but hes pretty much the best thing thats ever happened to me...hes like.. my soul mate.

we are something i cant explain..

honestly i could marry him. he means the world to me.. and rather than be with anyone ... i could be with him forever all day everyday

what is that?

is it love?

iv never been in love..

sometimes i wonder what im doing to keep him around..

im nothing special.. he could be so much happier with someone else.. but he still calls me every morning, wakes me up, and tells me how happy i make him.....

but my biggest fear is...

putting so much into something. and then losing it because i cared too much...

honestly iv never cared for anyone like i do him

hes amazing.

and if u havent met him..

well you should..

hes taught me so much...

and ..

i love him.

yes jonathan, i love you. hehe

but you know that. and i know you love me too..

wow i feel better..

this is honestly what you would read if you found a diary of mine in my secret hiding spot. so feel honored to read it..

the deep thoughts of kendra. :)

haha

exciting huh?

50 cents ha

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"
BEST

4. What's your favorite planet?
The moon. wait.. is that a planet?

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?:
let me look... Heather and Chad


6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
l.o.v.e. by ashlee simpson

7. What shirt are you wearing?:
proud navy sister

8. Do you "label" yourself?
yes. sometimes

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing.?
im barefoot at the moment.

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Bright

11. What do you think about the last person who took this survey?
she’s AMAZIN! LOVE MEL!

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleepin nig!  I gotz to get me beauty sleep!

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?:
“and im gonna see if steph wants to go so double yay" thanks tam!

15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
bout 2 or 3 miles

16. What's a saying that you say a lot?
"SHUT UP"

17.Who told you they loved you last?
my dad

18. Last furry thing you touched?
uh.. my cat

19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days?
zero.. go me! :)

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
one. i always have at least one.

27. The last song you listened to?
“lean with it"

Happy New Year Everyone!

 Tim gave me my New years count down kissssssssssssssssssss

and then some..

this year should be amazing.

amen

Christmas = the best one yet!

my whole family was here this year (finally)

I didnt get much this year, but i enjoyed it anyways, i finally think im grown up, as far as christmas is concerned... i dont enjoy opening my gifts that i already know im getting rather than watch my niece and nephews enjoy christmas and be totally surprised.

christmas really isnt all it use to be, after you get older

but my favorite part of my christmas was def. the new black RAZOR phone i got.

its negative in the deal is that i had to get a new number.

but have no fear.. the number is here...

so update ur cells with this number----> (972) 757- 0402

and call me?

oh yea... and... leave me comments and be sure to regive me ur number!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!